Buđenje / Awakening

Život je konstantna promena. Sve oko nas je u cikličnom kretanju, pa i svi procesi u našem telu takođe, i mi kao deo prirode imamo potencijal da se krećemo u tom ritmu. Ako uporedimo ljudsko telo i drvo, vidimo da su u kori drveta upisani godovi, kažu da kora drveta pamti, a isto se kaže i za ljudsku kožu, ipak jedno drvo u samo jednoj godini umre i ponovo se rodi, podari novo seme iz koga može da iznikne sasvim novo drvo, čak i iz posečenog drveta, ako ostane panj, može da nikne nova mladica. Svakoga dana u prirodi možemo videti milion “malih čuda”, zašto mislimo da se ta čuda ne mogu desiti i nama, zar nismo i mi deo te čarobne prirode? Činjenica je da će stresna situacija, povreda, teža bolest… ostaviti ožiljke u nama i po nama, ali je isto tako činjenica da mi sve to možemo prevazići i krenuti iz početka. Mislim da je ključ da se savkoga dana ispraznimo od svih negativnosti koje su nas dotakle toga dana, da se napunimo pozitivnom energijom, bilo kroz druženje sa prirodom ili druženje sa dobrom knjigom, filmom, muzikom, a najlepše je u zagrljaju voljene osobe, i onda zakoračiti u novi dan sveži i okupani dobrim snom, “kao ponovo rođeni” krenuti u novi dan otvorenog uma, otvorenog srca, ispunjeni ljubavlju! Sunce se ponovo rađa, sunce se svakog dana ponovo rađa!

Budi sunce, budi zvezdano nebo, budi reka koja preobražava sve u dobro…

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Life is a constant change. Everything around us is moving in cycles, all the processes in our body as well, and as a part of the nature, we too have the potential to move in that rhythm. Should we make a comparison between human body and a tree, we notice the rings imprinted in the bark of a tree, they say the bark of a tree has a memory and the same thing is said for the human skin. A tree dies and reborn all in a year, it gives a seed from which a new tree can sprout, even if the tree is cut down, if the stump remains, a new offspring will arise. Every day we can witness to a million “little wonders” in the nature, why do we think these wonders don’t happen to us too, aren’t we a part of that miraculous nature? The fact is that a stressful situation, an injury, a bad sickness… will leave scars within us and on us, but it is also a fact that we can overcome it all and start all over again. I think that the key is to clear from all the negativity we have encountered during a day, then to fill up with a good energy, whether from being in the nature or spending time in a company of a nice book, a movie, listening to a music, and the most beautifully in someone’s loving hug, and then step into a new day fresh and renewed with the good night sleep, “like a reborn” welcome a new day with an open mind, open heart, filled with love! The sun comes out again, the sun comes out again every day!

Be the sun, be the sky full of stars, be a river that transforms everything into good…

Ringišpil života / Life’s carousel

Život je jedan šareni ringišpil. Čas si na vrhu i rukama možeš da opipaš nebo, a već sledećeg trenutka udišeš prašinu. Često ti je muka od svega i samo želiš da sve stane, da siđeš, ali ipak ponovo se penješ i vrtiš, vrtiš, vrtiš u krug i gore i dole i kad ti se najviše vrti u glavi vrištiš od sreće i zadovoljstva i osećaš se kao na krilima neke ptice sa kojom letiš i nemisleći kuda, samo osećaš da si zadovoljan tu gde jesi.

Bez obzira koliko bilo i mučno i teško, makar i zarad samo jednog takvog trenutka spokojstva, radosti i slobode, vredi se uvek iznova vraćati tom ringišpilu boja i života.

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Life is one colorful carousel. In a second you are on the top of it and you can touch the sky with your hands, and yet at the next moment you can breathe the dust. You are often sick of everything and you just want everything to stop, you are ready to go down, but still you climb and spin again, you spin and spin in a circle and up and down and when everything in your head is spinning the most you scream with happiness and pleasure, and you feel like you are on the wings of a bird you fly with and not thinking where, you just feel satisfied where you are.

No matter how painful and difficult it may be, even if only for the sake of just such a moment of serenity, joy and freedom, it is always worth returning to that carousel of colors and life.

Tijana Stupljanin

Zlatna sredina / Golden middle

Za sve je u životu potrebna širina. I da se misli i da se voli i da se shvati i razume, i da se čovek oslobodi ovozemaljskih stega. Uzleteti i ostati negde između duha i tela, putenosti i večnosti. “Sve što činiš čini u slavu Boga.” Lepo zvuči, a možda je i moguće. Ako bismo  dušu poistovetili sa božanskim, kao nečim što je bezgranično, besmrtno i bezgrešno, onda bi recept bio jednostavan: hrani svoju dušu i bićeš bliže Bogu. A šta sa telom? Ništa ne postoji uzalud. Sredina se nameće kao jedino rešenje. Svemu naći meru. Sve što telo traži, mora da ima svoj oslonac ili svrhu u duši, da bi postojala ravnoteža. Nije to ni tako teško kao što na prvi pogled možda izgleda. Jer kada bi samo hranili i zadovoljavali telo, možda bismo neko vreme mislili da nam je super, ali vremenom bismo shvatili, tj. priznali sebi da hranimo prazninu koja postaje sve veća, na mestu gde je nekada obitavala duša. Zato ima puno ljudi koji naizgled imaju sve, ali nisu srećni, ili jesu, naizgled.
 
Duša bez tela može, a može li telo bez duše? Moje je mišljenje da je svaka forma bez sadržine beskorisna i glupa, a sve što postoji ima svoju svrhu i smisao…
 
Jasno je da mora postojati i duh i telo, tama i svetlo, noć i dan, dobro i loše, radost i tuga… To je život koji traje uprkos svemu. Uništenje i stvaranje, i čovek u središtu svega. Bog nam je zato dao i dušu i telo, da naučimo da balansiramo, da ne dozvolimo telu da pokvari dušu. Za to je potrebno iskustvo i sloboda duha, moć saznanja i samospoznaje, otvorene oči ali i srce. Istina je jedna: jedan čovek, jedna duša, jedan život, jedna sudbina, jedan smisao za svakoga od nas. Kad pronađeš svoj smisao reći ću ti ko sam.

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Everything in life require width. For thinking and loving and for understanding and comprehending and for freeing oneself from the earthly restraints. Take off and stay somewhere between the spirit and the body, sensuality and eternity. “Everything you do is done for the glory of God.” Sounds nice, and maybe it’s possible. If we would identify the soul with the divine, as something that is boundless, immortal and sinless, then the recipe would be simple: feed your soul and you will be closer to God. And what about the body? Nothing exists in vain. The environment is imposed as the only solution. Find a measure in everything. Everything that the body seeks must have its support or purpose in the soul, so there would be the balance. It’s not even as difficult as it may seem at first glance. Because if we would just feed and satisfy the body, we might think that it is great for a while, but in time we would understand, that is, admit to ourselves that we are feeding a void that is growing in a place where the soul once resided. That’s why there are a lot of people who seem to have everything, but they are not happy, or seemingly are.

A soul without a body can exist, but can a body be without a soul? It is my opinion that every form without content is useless and stupid, and everything that exists has its purpose and meaning…

It is clear that there must be the spirit as well as the body, the darkness and the light, the night and the day, the good and the bad, the joy and the sorrow… It is a life that goes on in spite of everything. Destruction and creation and the man at the center of everything. That is why God gave us both the soul and the body, to learn to balance, not to allow the body to corrupt the soul. This requires experience and freedom of spirit, the power of knowledge and self-understanding, open eyes but also an open heart. There is the one truth: one man, one soul, one life, one destiny, one meaning for each of us. When you find your meaning I’ll tell you who I am.

Tijana Stupljanin

Zvezda padalica / Shooting star

Zamisli želju, ali moraš uzjahati svoju zvezdu padalicu… Tek kada moje srce svom snagom nešto zaželi, a moj razum to prihvati kao dobro i sve emocije su pozitivne, sa dozom straha koji mi poručuje da je to nešto vredno truda, nešto veliko što mi na momente deluje nedostižno, volja zadaje konačan udarac, a moj um se oslobađa i čini sve da ispuni tu želju i postigne cilj.

Čovek je slobodan kada probije sve granice koje je sam sebi nametnuo, kada se ne plaši, kada se ne brine, kada može sve što zamisli, jer ne razmišlja o preprekama, već o mogućnostima, o izborima. Kada izađe iz svoje ušuškanosti i navika i počne da istražuje i kreira.

Kreiraj svoj život od želja svoje duše i pusti mašti na volju. Rođeni smo sa zvezdama u očima, nogama što po zemlji hode, srcem koje doseže zvezde… Pronađi svoju zvezdu padalicu i otkrij svet beskonačnih mogućnosti. Nije potrebno mnogo želeti, dovoljna je i jedna iskrena želja kojoj se celo biće već raduje i sa radošću prima njeno ispunjenje.

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Make a wish, but you have to ride your shooting star… Only when my heart desires something with all its strength, and my mind accepts it as good and all emotions are positive, with a dose of fear that tells me that it is something worth the effort, something great that at times seems unattainable, the will gives the final blow, and my mind frees itself and does everything to fulfill that desire and achieve the goal.

Man is free when he breaks all the boundaries he has imposed on himself, when he is not afraid, when he does not worry, when he can do everything he imagines, because he does not think about obstacles, but about possibilities, about choices. When he gets out of his clutter and habit and starts researching and creating.

Create your life from the desires of your soul and let your imagination run wild. We are born with the stars in our eyes, with feet that walk on the earth, and a heart that reaches the stars … Find your shooting star and discover the world of infinite possibilities. It is not necessary to wish much, one sincere wish is enough, which the whole being is already rejoicing to and joyfully receiving the fulfillment.

Tijana Stupljanin

Panta rei… Sve prolazi, sve se menja…/Panta rei… Everything passes, everything changes…

Nemoj se plašiti da izgubiš! U životu nekada nam se čini da nemamo dovoljno, da nikome nije dovoljno stalo do nas, da ne vredimo dovoljno, da ne dobijamo dovoljno… Istina je da imamo samo onoliko koliko smo spremni da damo, da je drugima stalo onoliko koliko je nama samima stalo do nas samih, da vredimo samo onoliko koliko volimo, da dobijamo onoliko koliko možemo da podnesemo.

Život je kao reka, on stalno teče i menja se, jedina konstanta tog kretanja si ti sam. Stoga, ako hoćeš da živiš ispunjen i srećan život, treba i ti da tečeš, da se prilagodiš, naviješ na ritam reke i menjaš. Uhvatiš ritam života i tečeš, skrećeš i okrećeš se onako kako se on uvija, krivuda i teče. Kada postaneš dobar plivač spoznaćeš i svoju kreatorsku moć i shvatiti da ta reka koja te nosi nije stihijska bujica, bez smisla i cilja. Ti si taj koji joj dubiš i oblikuješ korito, određuješ pravac i cilj kretanja. Smisao života si ti!

Život je konstantna promena, poput reke, neprestano teče. Ukoliko mu se opireš, samo se zamaraš i stojiš u mestu, tek kada se prepustiš životnoj sili osetiš punu draž življenja, a nagrada je kada se probudiš u osvit zore, umiješ lice i shvatiš da se tvoja životna reka uliva u more ljubavi…

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Do not be afraid to lose! In life, sometimes, it seems like we don’t have enough, that nobody truly cares about us, that we are not worth enough, that we don’t get enough… The truth is, we have only as much as we are prepared to give, the others care about us as much as we care for ourselves, we are worth as much as we love, we get exactly as much as we can handle.

Life is like a river, constantly flowing and changing, the only constant of that movement is yourself. Thus, if you want to live fulfilled and happy life you should flow as well, adjust, tune yourself up to the rhythm of the river and change. You catch the rhythm of life and flow, you twist and turn the way life curls, curves and flows. When you become a good swimmer, you will realize your creative power and you’ll understand that the river that carries you is not accidental flood, with no sense and purpose. You are the one who carves and shapes its bedrock, designate the way and purpose of its movement. The purpose of life is you!

Life is a never-ending change, like the river, it constantly flows. If you resist to it, you will only get tired and stay at the same place, but when you surrender to the force of life, you feel the full delight of living, and the reward is that when you wake up at the first dawn, wash your face and realize that your river of life flows into the sea of ​​love…

Život teče sam od sebe / Life flows on its own

Gledam svog malog andjela kako slatko spava, napućila je ustašca, ručice podigla visoko iznad glave, nešto sanja…

Razmišljam danima o svim strahovima, nadama, željama i opet strahovima, o sebi, o prošlosti i budućnosti, o životu. I kao i uvek u takvim trenucima, nemirnog sam uma, misli igraju svoju igru sumnje i zabluda, srce se plaši. Sve procenjujem, sve vagam. Više u telu nego u duši živim taj raspolućeni život i čekam da oluja prođe, da se misli stišaju, razbistre, da mogu neku pouku da izvučem, neku novu lekciju otpišem…

Sve počinje iznutra, iz jezgra, iz suštine i kad sazri pronadje svoj put napolje, izbije na površinu…

To mi daje i snagu i nadu da istrajem, da zaronim u sebe i počupam sav korov koji me pritiska i vuče ka dnu, jer znam da ću okupana svetlošću svoje duše izroniti jača, čistija i bolja.

A život teče, po nekom svom naumu i redu, i istrpi, na kraju, sve prepreke, sva skretanja koja mu nudim, iz straha da ne zalutam, iz buke uma koju ne mogu uvek da ugušim, tek po nekoj slutnji utišanog srca, čujem njegov šum koji me doziva da mu se prepustim. Vraćam mu se, na sreću, uvek, jer život je veći od nas samih i dešava se bili mi spremni ili ne.

Ranije sam mislila da je život težak, tako sam slušala valjda od starijih, i mislila sam da mu se treba suprotstavljati, boriti se za ono što želim po svaku cenu… Neke cene su ipak bile preskupe, a želje pogrešno protumačene. Istina je u staroj poslovici “sila Boga ne moli”, jer suprotstavljajući se tom toku, sputavamo i svoje želje i udaljavamo se od Boga i njegove zamisli. Dugo mi je trebalo da shvatim i prihvatim, istinu koju sam oduvek slutila iskonskom pameću, da je Bog ustvari dobar i da nam je namenio mnogo više i bolje nego što možemo da zamislimo ograničenim umom, zastrašenim srcem, ovim vremenom i prostorom.

A naša duša, naš suštinski život, beskonačan je i neuhvatljiv. O njemu su svi naši snovi, sve nade. On je od čiste mašte sazdan. Potrebno je samo voleti i verovati…

Zato večeras grlim svoju dušu, ljubim svoj život i zahvaljujem Bogu na svemu… i molim se da me ne napusti, ni sad, ni ikad, jer jedina stalna borba koju vredi voditi u ovom životu jeste borba za stišavanje uma i jačanje vere u sam život.

Celivam te poljupcima svoga srca!

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I am watching my little angel sleep sweetly, she has puffed her tiny mouth, raised her arms high above her head, she is dreaming something…

I am thinking for days now about all the fears, hopes, desires and again fears, about myself, about the past and the future, about life. And as always in such moments, my mind is restless, thoughts play their game of doubt and delusion, the heart is afraid. I evaluate everything, I weigh everything. I live that half-through life more in my body than in my soul and I am waiting for the storm to pass, for my thoughts to calm down, for me to clear up, for me to learn a lesson, to write off another lesson…

It all starts from the inside, from the core, from the essence and when it matures it finds its way out, it comes to the surface…

It gives me both strength and hope to persevere, to dive into myself and pull out all the weeds that presses me and drags me to the bottom, because I know that bathed in the light of my soul, I will emerge stronger, purer and better.

And life flows, fallowing his own plan and order, and endures, in the end, all obstacles, all the turning points I offer him, fearing of getting lost, out of the noise of the mind that I can’t always suffocate. Only by some intuition of a quiet heart, I hear his noise calling me to surrender to him. Fortunately, I always come back to him, because life is bigger than ourselves and it happens whether we are ready or not.

Some costs, however, were too high, and the wishes were misinterpreted. The truth is in the old proverb “the power does not pray the God “, because by opposing that flow, we also restrain our desires and distance ourselves from the God and his idea. It took me a long time to understand and accept, the truth that I have always sensed in the primordial mind, that the God is actually good and has intended for us far more and much better things than we can imagine with our limited mind, a frightened heart, with this time and space.

And our soul, our essential life, is infinite and elusive. All our dreams, all our hopes are about it. It is made out of pure imagination. You just have to love and believe…

So tonight, I am hugging my soul, I am loving my life and I thank the God for everything… and I pray that he does not leave me, not now or ever, because the only constant struggle worth fighting in this life is the struggle to calm the mind and strengthen the faith in life itself.

I am kissing you with the kisses of my heart!

Tijana Stupljanin

Šarena krila

Nekim ljudima leptir simbolizuje život, rađanje, preobražaj, dok drugima simbolizuje smrt i propadanje. Da li si gledao nekad kako od gusenice nastaje leptir? Kada sam bila mala mislila sam da je gusenica koja je prekrivena nekom belom paučinom ustvari mrtva i da ju je neki veliki pauk “sahranio” u svojoj mreži. Sa druge strane leptiri su mi uvek bili lepi, toliko živahni i razdragani, toliko različiti, sa bojama svih kontrasta i šara! I sada ih doživljavam kao oličenje živosti i prolećnog buđenja. Bila sam veoma zamišljena kada sam prvi put čula da leptiri ustvari nastaju iz učaurene gusenice i žive samo jedan dan… Jedan dan da prožive i ostvare svoju sudbinu, jedan dan da otkriju svet! Zamisli to, a mi provedemo godine mozgajući, padajući i podižući se. Mada mi i dalje nije jasno gde odlaze i kako umiru, mislim da su leptiri izvanredna mala stvorenja. Jutros sam razmisljala o tome koliko je naš život sličan životu leptira… Rodimo se puzeći bespomoćno kroz ruke koje brinu i neguju, onda se učaurimo u telima koja smo dobili i pipamo u mraku, učimo, trudimo se da nađemo smisao, da postignemo nešto što će se pamtiti ili bar prepričavati. Samo ako bismo bili uspešni u tom sazrevanju, kad umremo naša bi se duša oslobodila u spektru jedinstvenog oblika i šara, uzdigla poput najfinijeg leptira do vrha nebeskog… Šta bi se posle dešavalo, niko ne zna ili, možda, ćuti o tom…

Upoznaj samoga sebe / Get to know yourself

Koliko je mala jedna kap vode iz okeana, a opet sadrži u sebi ceo okean. Šta je kap mog postojanja u odnosu na okean života? Kako to lepo kaže Cesarić:

Taj san u slapu da bi mogo sjati,
I moja kaplja pomaže ga tkati.

Ja verujem u sebe. Verujem u prirodu i u Boga, kao bezgraničnu, savršenu, vanvremensku energiju, koja ima svoj cilj i svoje principe. Ona na jednom višem nivou uređuje ovaj svet i pravi ravnotežu. Verujem u kosmičku pravdu i njene zakone koji su isti za sve. Posmatrano iz te perspektive svi smo mi samo broj na mapi bezbrojnih života, ali verujući u sebe i gradeći svoj život svom svojom energijom i voljom, činimo da se i naš broj računa.

Ko sam ja? Koliko puta sam sebi postavila ovo pitanje. Da li sam ja ono što mislim da jesam? Nisam sigurna, jer u svojim mislima sam mnogo više, i hrabra i pametna i pravedna i velikodušna i samouverena i sposobna i spretna i još mnogo toga što su me učili da treba da budem i o čemu sam čitala da su vrline koje uvek vrede, koje su na ceni  i za koje se nekada plaćalo čak i životom. Istina je da su to sve ideali kojima težim i za koje sam sigurna da su izraz duhovnosti i čovečnosti koje su vredne življenja, ali je isto tako istina da tek pred velikim izazovom, u izvanrednim situacijama koje u deliću sekunde mogu zauvek promeniti naš život, naš svet, zaista spoznajemo svoju suštinu i za šta smo sve sposobni. Ako u takvim trenucima uspemo da prepoznamo delić večnosti i iskonske Božanske ljubavi u nama, na dobrom smo putu spoznaje i možda jednoga dana naši ideali postanu deo nas.

Kada izgubiš srce u bezgraničnoj ljubavi, dobijaš beskonačnu radost svog bića. Kada izgubiš iluziju onoga sto misliš da ti treba, dobiješ baš ono što želiš. Kada izgubiš ideju o tome ko misliš da jesi i šta treba da budeš, dobijaš sebe na dar.

Ja sam jedan nesavršeni deo celine, a celina je moj savršeni deo…

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How small is one drop of water from the ocean, and yet it contains the whole ocean. What is the drop of my existence in relation to the ocean of life? As Cesarić[i] nicely says:

That dream in the waterfall to be able to shine,

My little drop too helps weave it.

I believe in myself. I believe in nature and in God, as a boundless, perfect, timeless energy, which has its goal and its principles. It regulates this world on a higher level and creates balance. I believe in cosmic justice and its laws that are the same for everyone. Viewed from that perspective, we are all just a number on the map of countless lives, but by believing in ourselves and building our lives with all our energy and will, we seem to count our number as well.

Who I am? How many times have I asked myself this question. Am I what I think I am? I’m not sure, because in my mind I’m much more, brave and smart and just and generous and confident and capable and skilful and much more of what they taught me that I should be and what I read are the virtues that always have worth, for which the price was once paid even with life itself. It is true that these are all ideals that I strive for and that I am sure are an expression of spirituality and humanity that are worth living for, but it is also true that only before a great challenge, in extraordinary situations that can change our lives, our world, forever, we really realize our essence and what we are capable of. If in such moments we manage to recognize a part of eternity and primordial Divine love in us, we are on a good path of knowing and maybe one day our ideals will become a part of us.

When you lose your heart in boundless love, you gain the infinite joy of your being. When you lose the illusion of what you think you need, you get exactly what you want. When you lose the idea of who you think you are and what you should be, you get yourself as a gift.

I am an imperfect part of the whole, and the whole is my perfect part …


[i] Dobriša Cesarić (10 January 1902 – 18 December 1980) was a Croatian poet and translator born in Požega.

Na vetrometini života

Gledao je smrti u oči. Pod njim je podrhtavala ledena, vlažna zemlja, kud god se osvrtao njegov pogled prostirala se pustoš, kao da je izvirala direktno iz samog njegovog bića. Ona mučna, iskonska nemoć da ovlada svojim umom sada je postala najveća opasnost za njega. Šta je to što ga drži u ovom svetu? Pitao se Eol. -Da li je ovaj život moj ili njime upravlja neka nevidljiva sila? Postojim li samo kao sena ovog trulog, fizičkog tela, ili je u svakome od nas skriveni plamen čiste svesti koja nas konstantno priziva da se približimo sjaju beskrajnog plavetnila u kome postoji samo radost i čista vanvremenska ljubav od koje smo nastali?