Koliko je mala jedna kap vode iz okeana, a opet sadrži u sebi ceo okean. Šta je kap mog postojanja u odnosu na okean života? Kako to lepo kaže Cesarić:

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Taj san u slapu da bi mogo sjati,
I moja kaplja pomaže ga tkati.

Ja verujem u sebe. Verujem u prirodu i u Boga, kao bezgraničnu, savršenu, vanvremensku energiju, koja ima svoj cilj i svoje principe. Ona na jednom višem nivou uređuje ovaj svet i pravi ravnotežu. Verujem u kosmičku pravdu i njene zakone koji su isti za sve. Posmatrano iz te perspektive svi smo mi samo broj na mapi bezbrojnih života, ali verujući u sebe i gradeći svoj život svom svojom energijom i voljom, činimo da se i naš broj računa.

Ko sam ja? Koliko puta sam sebi postavila ovo pitanje. Da li sam ja ono što mislim da jesam? Nisam sigurna, jer u svojim mislima sam mnogo više, i hrabra i pametna i pravedna i velikodušna i samouverena i sposobna i spretna i još mnogo toga što su me učili da treba da budem i o čemu sam čitala da su vrline koje uvek vrede, koje su na ceni  i za koje se nekada plaćalo čak i životom. Istina je da su to sve ideali kojima težim i za koje sam sigurna da su izraz duhovnosti i čovečnosti koje su vredne življenja, ali je isto tako istina da tek pred velikim izazovom, u izvanrednim situacijama koje u deliću sekunde mogu zauvek promeniti naš život, naš svet, zaista spoznajemo svoju suštinu i za šta smo sve sposobni. Ako u takvim trenucima uspemo da prepoznamo delić večnosti i iskonske Božanske ljubavi u nama, na dobrom smo putu spoznaje i možda jednoga dana naši ideali postanu deo nas.

Kada izgubiš srce u bezgraničnoj ljubavi, dobijaš beskonačnu radost svog bića. Kada izgubiš iluziju onoga sto misliš da ti treba, dobiješ baš ono što želiš. Kada izgubiš ideju o tome ko misliš da jesi i šta treba da budeš, dobijaš sebe na dar.

Ja sam jedan nesavršeni deo celine, a celina je moj savršeni deo…

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How small is one drop of water from the ocean, and yet it contains the whole ocean. What is the drop of my existence in relation to the ocean of life? As Cesarić[i] nicely says:

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That dream in the waterfall to be able to shine,

My little drop too helps weave it.

I believe in myself. I believe in nature and in God, as a boundless, perfect, timeless energy, which has its goal and its principles. It regulates this world on a higher level and creates balance. I believe in cosmic justice and its laws that are the same for everyone. Viewed from that perspective, we are all just a number on the map of countless lives, but by believing in ourselves and building our lives with all our energy and will, we seem to count our number as well.

Who I am? How many times have I asked myself this question. Am I what I think I am? I’m not sure, because in my mind I’m much more, brave and smart and just and generous and confident and capable and skilful and much more of what they taught me that I should be and what I read are the virtues that always have worth, for which the price was once paid even with life itself. It is true that these are all ideals that I strive for and that I am sure are an expression of spirituality and humanity that are worth living for, but it is also true that only before a great challenge, in extraordinary situations that can change our lives, our world, forever, we really realize our essence and what we are capable of. If in such moments we manage to recognize a part of eternity and primordial Divine love in us, we are on a good path of knowing and maybe one day our ideals will become a part of us.

When you lose your heart in boundless love, you gain the infinite joy of your being. When you lose the illusion of what you think you need, you get exactly what you want. When you lose the idea of who you think you are and what you should be, you get yourself as a gift.

I am an imperfect part of the whole, and the whole is my perfect part …

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[i] Dobriša Cesarić (10 January 1902 – 18 December 1980) was a Croatian poet and translator born in Požega.