Umetnost naša nasušna /Art Our Essential

Straight-away the ideas flow in upon me, directly from God, and not only do I see distinct themes in my mind’s eye, but they are clothed in the right forms, harmonies, and orchestration.
—Johannes Brahms

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Ideje se neposredno ulivaju u mene, direktno od Boga, i ne samo da u očima svog uma vidim jasne teme, već su one obučene u prave forme, harmonije i orkestracije.

– Johanes Brams

Umetnost je razgovor duše i Boga. Ona nam prenosi važnu poruku o stvaranju i večnosti. Govori nam, ko ume da čuje, da svi nosimo isti izvor u sebi. Božanska priroda koja stvara, koja ne poznaje granice i nema rok trajanja. To sveto mesto koje nas ispuni kada stvaramo, prenosi se direktno sa duše na dušu. Zato mnogima promakne ta lepota, taj neprocenjivi trenutak čiste emocije koja nas povezuje sa celom Vasionom, sa svim umetnicima pre nas i sa svima onima koji će doći. Kroz umetnost možemo da doživimo, da osetimo beskonačnost.

Umetnost je potreba duše. Ljudi su stvarali umetnost i kada toga nisu bili ni svesni. Izražavanje kroz oblike i boje je dolazilo prirodno, spontano. Taj božanski deo nas je oduvek tražio da se izrazi.

Kao zrela žena počela sam da osećam nešto kao čežnju za kreativnim izrazom. Odjednom me je sve vuklo ka tome da želim da stvaram, tako je i nastao ovaj blog, odjednom me ponovo zanima umetnost u svim formama i oblicima.

Jednoga dana vidim objavu na fejsbuku da jedna slikarka drži časove slikanja, pozovem je i dogovorim sa njom čas za mene i moju ćerku, koja obožava kreativne stvari. Nisam ni znala da umem da nacrtam ceo portret. Od srednje škole se nisam igrala sa crtanjem i slikanjem, a crtala sam nekada puno. Potpuno sam zapustila taj deo sebe, a osećaj kada se “izgubiš” u nekom prostoru u sebi i samo prepustiš stvaranju, je jedna posebna vrsta meditacije i moja duša je presrećna što sam joj dopustila da se igra. A kada je duša srećna, ona onda i slika i igra i peva i ne prestaje da stvara.

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Art is the need of the soul. People were making art when they were not even aware of it. Expression through shapes and colors came naturally, spontaneously. That divine part of our being was always looking to express itself.

As a mature woman, I began to feel something like craving for creative expression. Suddenly everything was pulling me into wanting to create, that’s how this blog came about, all of a sudden I’m rediscovering my interest for art in all forms and shapes.

One day I see a post on Facebook that an artist holds painting classes, I call her and arrange with her an hour class for me and my daughter, who loves creative things. I didn’t even knew that I know how to draw the whole portrait. I have not played with drawing and painting since high school, and I used to draw a lot. I completely abandoned that part of myself, but the feeling of “losing” yourself in some space within and just letting go of creation is one particular kind of meditation and my soul is overjoyed that I let it out to play. And when the soul is happy, then it also paints and plays and sings and does not stop creating.

Zlatna sredina / Golden middle

Za sve je u životu potrebna širina. I da se misli i da se voli i da se shvati i razume, i da se čovek oslobodi ovozemaljskih stega. Uzleteti i ostati negde između duha i tela, putenosti i večnosti. “Sve što činiš čini u slavu Boga.” Lepo zvuči, a možda je i moguće. Ako bismo  dušu poistovetili sa božanskim, kao nečim što je bezgranično, besmrtno i bezgrešno, onda bi recept bio jednostavan: hrani svoju dušu i bićeš bliže Bogu. A šta sa telom? Ništa ne postoji uzalud. Sredina se nameće kao jedino rešenje. Svemu naći meru. Sve što telo traži, mora da ima svoj oslonac ili svrhu u duši, da bi postojala ravnoteža. Nije to ni tako teško kao što na prvi pogled možda izgleda. Jer kada bi samo hranili i zadovoljavali telo, možda bismo neko vreme mislili da nam je super, ali vremenom bismo shvatili, tj. priznali sebi da hranimo prazninu koja postaje sve veća, na mestu gde je nekada obitavala duša. Zato ima puno ljudi koji naizgled imaju sve, ali nisu srećni, ili jesu, naizgled.
 
Duša bez tela može, a može li telo bez duše? Moje je mišljenje da je svaka forma bez sadržine beskorisna i glupa, a sve što postoji ima svoju svrhu i smisao…
 
Jasno je da mora postojati i duh i telo, tama i svetlo, noć i dan, dobro i loše, radost i tuga… To je život koji traje uprkos svemu. Uništenje i stvaranje, i čovek u središtu svega. Bog nam je zato dao i dušu i telo, da naučimo da balansiramo, da ne dozvolimo telu da pokvari dušu. Za to je potrebno iskustvo i sloboda duha, moć saznanja i samospoznaje, otvorene oči ali i srce. Istina je jedna: jedan čovek, jedna duša, jedan život, jedna sudbina, jedan smisao za svakoga od nas. Kad pronađeš svoj smisao reći ću ti ko sam.

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Everything in life require width. For thinking and loving and for understanding and comprehending and for freeing oneself from the earthly restraints. Take off and stay somewhere between the spirit and the body, sensuality and eternity. “Everything you do is done for the glory of God.” Sounds nice, and maybe it’s possible. If we would identify the soul with the divine, as something that is boundless, immortal and sinless, then the recipe would be simple: feed your soul and you will be closer to God. And what about the body? Nothing exists in vain. The environment is imposed as the only solution. Find a measure in everything. Everything that the body seeks must have its support or purpose in the soul, so there would be the balance. It’s not even as difficult as it may seem at first glance. Because if we would just feed and satisfy the body, we might think that it is great for a while, but in time we would understand, that is, admit to ourselves that we are feeding a void that is growing in a place where the soul once resided. That’s why there are a lot of people who seem to have everything, but they are not happy, or seemingly are.

A soul without a body can exist, but can a body be without a soul? It is my opinion that every form without content is useless and stupid, and everything that exists has its purpose and meaning…

It is clear that there must be the spirit as well as the body, the darkness and the light, the night and the day, the good and the bad, the joy and the sorrow… It is a life that goes on in spite of everything. Destruction and creation and the man at the center of everything. That is why God gave us both the soul and the body, to learn to balance, not to allow the body to corrupt the soul. This requires experience and freedom of spirit, the power of knowledge and self-understanding, open eyes but also an open heart. There is the one truth: one man, one soul, one life, one destiny, one meaning for each of us. When you find your meaning I’ll tell you who I am.

Tijana Stupljanin

Život teče sam od sebe / Life flows on its own

Gledam svog malog andjela kako slatko spava, napućila je ustašca, ručice podigla visoko iznad glave, nešto sanja…

Razmišljam danima o svim strahovima, nadama, željama i opet strahovima, o sebi, o prošlosti i budućnosti, o životu. I kao i uvek u takvim trenucima, nemirnog sam uma, misli igraju svoju igru sumnje i zabluda, srce se plaši. Sve procenjujem, sve vagam. Više u telu nego u duši živim taj raspolućeni život i čekam da oluja prođe, da se misli stišaju, razbistre, da mogu neku pouku da izvučem, neku novu lekciju otpišem…

Sve počinje iznutra, iz jezgra, iz suštine i kad sazri pronadje svoj put napolje, izbije na površinu…

To mi daje i snagu i nadu da istrajem, da zaronim u sebe i počupam sav korov koji me pritiska i vuče ka dnu, jer znam da ću okupana svetlošću svoje duše izroniti jača, čistija i bolja.

A život teče, po nekom svom naumu i redu, i istrpi, na kraju, sve prepreke, sva skretanja koja mu nudim, iz straha da ne zalutam, iz buke uma koju ne mogu uvek da ugušim, tek po nekoj slutnji utišanog srca, čujem njegov šum koji me doziva da mu se prepustim. Vraćam mu se, na sreću, uvek, jer život je veći od nas samih i dešava se bili mi spremni ili ne.

Ranije sam mislila da je život težak, tako sam slušala valjda od starijih, i mislila sam da mu se treba suprotstavljati, boriti se za ono što želim po svaku cenu… Neke cene su ipak bile preskupe, a želje pogrešno protumačene. Istina je u staroj poslovici “sila Boga ne moli”, jer suprotstavljajući se tom toku, sputavamo i svoje želje i udaljavamo se od Boga i njegove zamisli. Dugo mi je trebalo da shvatim i prihvatim, istinu koju sam oduvek slutila iskonskom pameću, da je Bog ustvari dobar i da nam je namenio mnogo više i bolje nego što možemo da zamislimo ograničenim umom, zastrašenim srcem, ovim vremenom i prostorom.

A naša duša, naš suštinski život, beskonačan je i neuhvatljiv. O njemu su svi naši snovi, sve nade. On je od čiste mašte sazdan. Potrebno je samo voleti i verovati…

Zato večeras grlim svoju dušu, ljubim svoj život i zahvaljujem Bogu na svemu… i molim se da me ne napusti, ni sad, ni ikad, jer jedina stalna borba koju vredi voditi u ovom životu jeste borba za stišavanje uma i jačanje vere u sam život.

Celivam te poljupcima svoga srca!

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I am watching my little angel sleep sweetly, she has puffed her tiny mouth, raised her arms high above her head, she is dreaming something…

I am thinking for days now about all the fears, hopes, desires and again fears, about myself, about the past and the future, about life. And as always in such moments, my mind is restless, thoughts play their game of doubt and delusion, the heart is afraid. I evaluate everything, I weigh everything. I live that half-through life more in my body than in my soul and I am waiting for the storm to pass, for my thoughts to calm down, for me to clear up, for me to learn a lesson, to write off another lesson…

It all starts from the inside, from the core, from the essence and when it matures it finds its way out, it comes to the surface…

It gives me both strength and hope to persevere, to dive into myself and pull out all the weeds that presses me and drags me to the bottom, because I know that bathed in the light of my soul, I will emerge stronger, purer and better.

And life flows, fallowing his own plan and order, and endures, in the end, all obstacles, all the turning points I offer him, fearing of getting lost, out of the noise of the mind that I can’t always suffocate. Only by some intuition of a quiet heart, I hear his noise calling me to surrender to him. Fortunately, I always come back to him, because life is bigger than ourselves and it happens whether we are ready or not.

Some costs, however, were too high, and the wishes were misinterpreted. The truth is in the old proverb “the power does not pray the God “, because by opposing that flow, we also restrain our desires and distance ourselves from the God and his idea. It took me a long time to understand and accept, the truth that I have always sensed in the primordial mind, that the God is actually good and has intended for us far more and much better things than we can imagine with our limited mind, a frightened heart, with this time and space.

And our soul, our essential life, is infinite and elusive. All our dreams, all our hopes are about it. It is made out of pure imagination. You just have to love and believe…

So tonight, I am hugging my soul, I am loving my life and I thank the God for everything… and I pray that he does not leave me, not now or ever, because the only constant struggle worth fighting in this life is the struggle to calm the mind and strengthen the faith in life itself.

I am kissing you with the kisses of my heart!

Tijana Stupljanin